REST IN PEACE MJ..

Couldnt believe it that Michael Jackson is dead @ 50 years old! Like most people, i basically grew up listening to his music as well..He will be forever be remembered as the King of Pop and definately a Legend..RIP MJ..

People in your life….

Have any of you ever wondered about the people in your life?how do you come to know them?how you become friends?well i have..

Yesterday i was chatting with a really old old friend..we basically grew up together..hehehe..we were even born in the same month but i’m older then her by one day..heck!we even stay in the same village together..oh,we also share the same cousins but we are not blood related..only through marriage..while we were chatting with each other about the good old times that we used to have and other wonderful,crazy memories that we had,i started to wonder and asked her the question that i was wondering about.. i couldnt remember how exactly that we became so close..mind you,i would put my life in her hands..thats how close we are..we were trying to figure it out but to no avail..hehehehe..

funny how things works in life..it doesnt always end-up like you want it to be but its always work out in the end..but in between, there will definately be something weird going on…hehehehe…but what ever it is,dont regret the decision that you have made in life..there is a saying ” To be old and wise,you must first have to be young and stupid.“..hehehehe

I have many friends i guess but i only have a hand full of friends that i keep around me..im so happy to have this friends in my life even though they might not share the same views as me but i like having them around..i would like to say to all the friends and people in my life that im glad that they have come into my life..cheers!!

what a weather…

Gila eh..dari monday night lagi hujan sampai la skarang..satu hari ni hari ribut..kalau di kk ni,confirm banjir suda rumah bapa sia..wakakakaka..anyway, nothing much happened today..oh ya, i need to tell what happened yesterday for my marketing group presentation..update la kira..

The first day of a long week..

Today was the first day of my ‘hell week’..This was what happened..i had problems with one of my group report..one of my group member was not satisfied with the report..cant do much on that!

Forecast:bad week up ahead..

im really really not looking forward to next week..i have like 3 assignment due and 2 presentation to do..sigh..this past couple of days i just stayed home, locking myself inside my room..im really not in the mood for anything at the momment..i dont even F***king care about my assignment anymore..i dont even care much about whats going to happen to me anymore..

what went wrong?what did i do or did not do for things to be like this?

one friend said this to me..”it is hard picking up urself when ur down”..i do agree..my reply was “then it is better just to stay down then so u wont have much pain inside of u”..

i must admit that it is not easy being away from home..to add to the suffering,i dont have much friends to be with..even though im staying with my aunty and cousin here,it still feels like im alone here..we hardly talk to each other..oh by the way,this house is like one and the half hours away from my campus (to those who havent know yet)..

sheessshhh..i dont know what to say anymore..

this is the “calm before the storm”..my feeling tell me that im going to be heading for a rough storm soon..i have been to a lot of those but i hope this time,it will take me away with it…

Got my nokia fixed..yea…

i send my nokia to the clinic today..good news, its fixed..im so happy!! now the only thing that is left to be done to the phone is changing the housing..then at least look like new this..hehe this phone reminded me of my dad..last year around june, i went back home for 2 week holiday..my dad saw this phone and biasa la tu say something negetive about it..then the day before i left, my dad was asking me about this phone again..i told him that if he want, we swap phone..we actually did but sayang the memory card tidak sama this..so, tidak jadi..kekekke

Disappointed with own family members…

Last year i was here,i got myself a Nokia 6500 slide handphone..After that,the new Apple Iphone 3G came out..so apa lagi si kawan,got himself the Iphone..then my cousin found out that i got a spare phone..he asked me to lend him my nokia phone, so i did..but now, i got to know that the nokia phone got problem..and he didnt even do anything about it and got himself a new phone..im very disappointed with that..i paid a lot of money for the nokia phone..and he buat macam tidak tau ja ni..*$&#..anyway,im sending that phone to be check tomorrow..sigh, duit lagi..dia yang pakai sampai rosak, sia yang bayar..memang mahal lagi mau repair tu,if can repair..if not,rugi saja..Let that be a lesson to me la..

Life in brisbane..

Brisbane is a very nice to be in..you have the friendly people plus you will see people of different culture everywhere..i like it here very much..if im bored,i could always catch the train to Gold Coast..hehehe..thats another cool place to be at..seriously,try to make it to GC if you have the opportunity..

life is too short to hold back…

i got a sms from my cousin back in malaysia informing me about the death of my uncle(mum’s brother)..i didnt believe it at first so i called my dad up..he told me that my uncle was in critical condition..soon after that,my mum called me up saying that its confirm that he had passed away..

it was a shock to me since he is still young..he died of heart attack..probably that was why i was feeling uneasy since my last post..

it made me realised  that life is really to short in holding back..so i made a decision to do all the things that i should have done or do so that i will have no regret..who knows,my turn could be next..

im sad that im not there during this sad moment for my family,especially for my mum..i know that it is really hard for her to lose another sibling..i pray that she and all of them will be ok…

P/s: to all that i have done wrong to..i would like to say im sorry..i do appreciate all of you for supporting me all this while..to the person i love, i still do love you..never did i change my mind!

~lzm~

restless feeling

“Far from home and away you, my heart grows fonder of you each day that passed me by..turning to the LORD for comfort each night, always praying for a miracle to come on the next day..maybe hope is gone to this losing battle..but is it a losing battle?..surrendering is an option that dwells in mind..should i or should i not, keep on fighting and believing in it anymore?..should i believe in faith and destiny?or is destiny mine to shape..i would trade my life just to have you in these arms once again..”

~lzm~

on the way home today,my heart suddenly become restless..i became so sad and felt a heavy sharp pain in my chest..something was wrong but i dont know what..writting this post,im still feeling the same..im losing grip on my life once again..sigh..what a time to have this kind of feelings..finals is coming up in a few weeks time..hopefully i can push this feeling aside for now and deal with it later..i know that i cant deal with this at the moment…